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Sunday, July 10, 2005
Here's what the Encyclopedia Galactica has to say about alcohol. It says that alcohol is a colorless volatile liquid formed by the fermentation of sugars and also notes its intoxicating effect on certain carbon-based life forms. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy also mentions alcohol. It says that the best drink in existence is the Pan Galactic Gargle Blaster. It says that the effect of drinking a Pan Galactic Gargle Blaster is like having your brains smashed out by a slice of lemon wrapped round a large gold brick. The Guide also tells you on which planets the best Pan Galactic Gargle Blasters are mixed, how much you can expect to pay for one and what voluntary organizations exist to help you rehabilitate afterward. The Guide even tells you how you can mix one yourself. Take the juice from one bottle of the Ol' Janx Spirit, it says. Pour into it one measure of water from the seas of Santraginus V—Oh, that Santraginean seawater, it says. Oh, those Santraginean fish! Allow three cubes of Arcturan Mega-gin to melt into the mixture (it must be properly iced or the benzine is lost). Allow four liters of Fallian marsh gas to bubble through it, in memory of all those happy hikers who have died of pleasure in the Marshes of Fallia. Over the back of a silver spoon float a measure of Qualactin Hypermint extract, redolent of all the heady odors of the dark Qualactin Zones, subtle, sweet and mystic. Drop in the tooth of an Algolian Suntiger. Watch it dissolve, spreading the fires of the Algolian Suns deep into the heart of the drink. Sprinkle Zamphuor. Add an olive. Drink ... but ... very carefully ... The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy sells rather better than the Encyclopedia Galactica. - still searching for an answer @ 2:55 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Thursday, July 07, 2005
Q. Why is the word abbreviate so long? A. There's no reason why words should necessarily reflect in some way the concept they express. Unless, of course, like whistle or splash, a word is an onomatopoeia - something onomatopoeia is not in itself. If abbreviation is too long for you, the 'official' abbreviation for abbreviation and abbreviate is abbr. Q. What are the longest words in the English language? A. English is not a language rich in very long words, unlike its close cousin German. In German it is common to make up compound words, which in English would be expressed by a number of individual words. An example of this is the snappy name of the Danube Steamship Company: Donaudampfschifahrtsgesellschaftkapitaen. Try coming up with an advertising jingle for that one. Most long words in English are chemical names or names of diseases. The longest of these are: Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis (45 letters), a lung disease caused by breathing in particles Tetramethyldiaminobenzhydrylphosphinous Acid (39 letters) Hepaticocholangiocholecystenterostomies (37 letters), a surgical creation of a connection between the gall bladder and a hepatic duct and between the intestine and the gall bladder Formaldehydetetramethylamidofluorimum (37 letters)Dimethylamidophenyldimethylpyrazolone (37 Letters) Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious (34 Letters), from the Disney film Mary Poppins. It's an invented word, but appears in the Oxford English Dictionary Floccinaucinihilipilification (29 letters), an estimation of something as worthless. This is the longest word in the first edition of the Oxford English Dictionary and it dates back to 1741. It was famously used by Sir Walter Scott in his Journal - 'They must be taken with an air of contempt, a floccinaucinihilipilification of all that can gratify the outward man' - and more recently by the US senator Jesse Helms in a debate on the Comprehensive Test Ban Treaty: 'I note your distress at my floccinaucinihilipilification of the CTBT.'The longest word used by Shakespeare was honorificabilitudinitatibus (27 letters), appearing in Love's Labour's Lost. Everyday long words are: incomprehensibilities (21 letters), indistinguishable, undistinguishable (both 17 letters) and incomprehensible (16 letters) Q. And the longest word ever, in any language? A. The prize for this goes to the term for the chemical formula C(1289)H(2051)N(343)O(375)S(8), which comes in at a cool 1,913 letters: Methionylglutaminylarginyltyrosylglutamylserylleucylphenyl-alanylalanylglutaminylleucyllysylglutamylarginyllysyglutamyl-gycylalanylphenylalanylvalylprolylphenylalanylvalylthreonyl-leucylglycylaspartylprolylglycyllisoleucylglutamylglutaminyl-serylleucyllysylisoleucylaspartylthreonylleucylisoleucyl-glutamylalanylglycylalanylaspartylalanylleucylglutamylleucyl-glycylisoleucylprolylphenylalanylserylaspartylprolylleucyl-alanylaspartylglycylprolylthreonylisoleucylglutaminylasparaginyl-alanylthreonylleucylarginylalanylphenylalanylalanylalanyl-glycylvalylthreonylprolylalanylglutaminylcysteinylphenylalanyl-glutamylmethionylleucylalanylleucylisoleucylarginylglutaminyl-lysylhistidylprolylthreonylisoleucylprolylisoleucylglycylleucyl-leucylmethionyltyrosylalanylasparaginylleucylvalylphenylalanyl-asparaginyllysylglycylisoleucylaspartylglutamylphenylalanyl-tyrosylalanylglutaminylcysteinylglutamyllysylvalylglycylvalyl-aspartylsrylvalylleucylvalylalanylaspartylvalylprolylvalyl-glutaminylglutamylserylalanylprolylphenylalanylarginylglutaminyl-alanylalanylleucylarginylhistidylasparaginylvalylalanyl-prolylisoleucylphenylalanylisoleucylcysteinylprolylprolylaspartyl-alanylaspartylaspartylaspartylleucylleucylarginylglutaminyl-isoleucylalanylseryltyrosylglycylarginylglycyltyrosylthreonyl-tyrosylleucylleucylserylarginylalanylglycylvalylthreonylglycyl-alanylglutamylasparaginylarginylalanylalanylleucylleucyllysyl-glutamyltyrosylasparaginylalanylalanylprolylprolylleucylglutaminyl-glycylphenylalanylglysylisoleucylserylalanylprolylaspartylglutaminyl-valyllysylalanylalanylisoleucylaspartylalanylglycylalanylalanyl-glycylalanylisoleucylserylglycylserylalanylisoleucylvalyllysylisoleucyl-isoleucylglutamylglutaminylhistidylasparaginylisoleucylglutamyl-prolylglutamyllysylmethionylleucylalanylalanylleucyllysylvalylphenyl-alanylvalylglutaminylprolylmethionyllysylalanylalanylthreonylarginy-lserine - still searching for an answer @ 9:04 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Thursday, June 23, 2005
Divorce : Future tense of marriage. Cigarette : A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end & a fool on the other. Lecture : An art of transferring information from the notes of the Lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either Conference : The confusion of one man multiplied by the number present. Compromise : The art of dividing a cake in such a way that everybody believes he got the biggest piece. Tears : The hydraulic force by which masculine will-power is defeated by feminine water power Dictionary : A place where success comes before work. Conference Room : A place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on. Classic : A book which people praise, but do not read. Smile : A curve that can set a lot of things straight. Office : A place where you can relax after your strenuous home life. Yawn : The only time some married men ever get to open their mouth. Etc. : A sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do. Committee : Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit to decide that nothing can be done together. Experience : The name men give to their mistakes. Atom Bomb : An invention to end all inventions. Philosopher : A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead. Diplomat : A person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip. Opportunist : A person who starts taking bath if he accident all falls into a river. Optimist : A person who while falling from Eiffel tower says in midway "See I am not injured yet." Miser : A person who lives poor so that he can die rich. Father : A banker provided by nature. Criminal : A guy no different from the rest....except that he got caught. Boss : Someone who is early when you are late and late when you are early. Politician : One who shakes your hand before elections and your confidence after. Doctor : A person who kills your ills by pills, and kills you with his bills. - still searching for an answer @ 8:43 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Those that go searching for love only make manifest their own lovelessness, and the loveless never find love, only the loving find love, and they never have to seek it. - D. H. Lawrence Searching for love is the great quest of life, for love is our true nature - and nothing less will satisfy us. Yet where we search for love makes all the difference in whether or not we find it. All the love you seek is within you. When you look for love from the outside world, you might receive momentary spikes of happiness, but ultimately you'll be left feeling empty, frustrated and confused. No onecan give you what you already have. Return to your inner fountain of happiness, and you'll be eternally replenished. There you'll find so much fulfillment that you'll be overflowing with it and will have plenty to share with others. The secret of life isn't to get love, it's to give it. The love you give to others flows through you and lifts you as you radiate it. When you take your attention off your own difficulties and find the beauty in others and the world, you'll remember your own. In truth, you were never lacking - you just needed a reminder that you already had love. At this moment, you're enfolded in infinite love, for the arms of God hold and caress you. Recognize your eternal lovability, and you'll become a lover unlike any world has ever known. --Alan Cohen, Wisdom of the Heart - still searching for an answer @ 2:10 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Thursday, June 09, 2005
Untitled by Simple Plan I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light I can't remember how I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight And I can't stand the pain And I can't make it go away No I can't stand the pain How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered And I can't explain what happened And I can't erase the things that I've done No I can't How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me I made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading away I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to me - still searching for an answer @ 1:48 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Wednesday, June 08, 2005
  Spot the difference! the poster on the left is the original.. the one on the right is made by me! haha the wonders of photoshop. The poster is for our EID project.. Innova is the name we give our 'company' and our 'product' we marketing is called the Innovative Bouyancy Aid.. - still searching for an answer @ 8:20 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Monday, June 06, 2005
Yups! Im actually 15! I suspected it long ago.. im a rebel, i challenge the system.. who cares they are catching people downloading stuff off the net.. im downloading a new movie or album every other day.. i listen to punk rock esp simple plan and i luv Linkin Park.. I will be REAL dissapointed if Kids Central replace my One Piece! with some stupid barbie cartoon on sundays.. a great gift for me would be a whole series of spongebob squarepants.. i think the teletubbies and the evil purple dinosaur called Barney is still out there psychoing little kids minds.. i'll pull a long face everywhere i go if something is not going my way.. if im sad, no one shd be happy haha.. im a spoilt brat seeking attention.. Still dun noe wats happening in my love life.. how can it go so wrong? Sometimes i hope i just wake up and find this whole life is just a nightmare.. being 15 is more fun than being 22.. argh dun remind me im going to 23 in a few months time.. - still searching for an answer @ 11:46 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Sunday, June 05, 2005
At a seminar, a woman named Georgia reported that she'd been emotionally absent. After many long and frustrating years attempting to put the spark into her marriage, Georgia felt she needed to leave her husband. "I told him I wanted a divorce, but he refused to give it to me," she told the group. "So I decided that even if he didn't love me, I would love me. I decided to give myself the love and tenderness I'd been seeking from him. So every day I wrote myself a long love letter telling myself how beautiful, wise and desirable I am. "One day, my husband found one of the letters. Since it was unsigned, he assumed it was from another man. The next day he came to me, waving the letter in his hand. he said, 'I can't compete with this - you can have your divorce!'" Your relationships are your mirrors: The love you receive - or don't receive - from others is a reflection of how much you're loving yourself. When you truly love yourself, you can never be abused. But when you don't love yourself, nobody on the planet will be able to save you. If you feel sad or frustrated that you're not getting the love, appreciation, and acknowledgment that you crave from someone else, give it to yourself. It's your own love you want, so why confuse yourself by seeking it from another? When you honour and nuture yourself, your happiness will proceed from within you, and you won't have to depend on another for it. As you give yourself more love, your relationships will change to reflect your self-honoring. You won't need to force or manipulate anyone; life will assist you in accomplishing the changes you desire. Those who don't match your self-appreciation will either begin to do so, or they'll leave your world of influence. And in turn, the universe will send you people who match your inner romance. Another person isn't the source of your love - you are. True love is an inside job. -- Alan Cohen, Wisdom of the Heart - still searching for an answer @ 8:41 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Saturday, June 04, 2005
Roberto De Vincenzo, the reowned Argentinian golfer, once won a pro tournament with a substantial cash prize. After receiving the check and smiling for the cameras, he went to the clubhouse and prepared to leave. Sometime later, he walked to his car in the parking lot and was approached by a young woman. She congratulated him on his victoory and then told him that her baby was seriously ill and near death - she didn't know how she would ever pay the doctor's bills and hospital expenses. De Vincenzo was touched by her story, and he took out a pen and endorsed his winning check over to the woman. "Make some good days for the child," he said as he pressed the check into her hand. The next week, De Vincenzo was having lunch in a country club when a Professional Golf Association official came to his table. " Some of the boys in the parking lot told me you met a young woman there after you won that tournament last week." De Vincenzo nodded. "Well," said the official, "I have news for you - she's a phony. She has no sick kid. That girl fleeced you, my friend." "You mean there's no dying baby?" "That's right." "That's the best news I've heard all week," De Vincenzo answered. Your happiness depends not on events, but on what you make of them. You can't control what other people do, but you do have total control over your own response. When you react out of fear or judgement, you compound the illusions that bring you pain. When your responses stem from a sense of love and trust, you dispel dark beliefs and open the door to grace. Once you performed an act, release it to the universe. If your intentions are pure, then you're not responsible for what others make of what you do. Trust life to settle everything into its right place. If people distort or misuse what you've created, then they'll have to deal with with the consequences... and that isn't your business. Your business is to live with a whole heart, act in harmony with your values, and find peace peace through your own integrity. The meaning of any experience is what you give it. If others tempt you to step into fear or judgement, don't succumb - instead, choose the high road. The path to a peaceful heart is paved with peaceful interpretations. If you focus on evil, you'll only find more of it. If, however, you turn your attention to miracles, you'll only discover them where you look. The world you see through the eyes of love is far closer to reality than the one shown to you by fear. Giving others the benefit of doubt will bring relief to you both. -- Alan Cohen, Wisdom of the Heart - still searching for an answer @ 10:39 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Sunday, May 29, 2005
A priest and a cabdriver arrived at the Pearly Gates at the same time. After interviewing them both, St. Peter open the Gates and let the cabdriver into heaven. Then he told the priest to have a seat and await furthur consideration. The priest was outraged. "How can you let that man into Heaven before me?" he complained. "I preached every Sunday for more than 50 years! All this man did was drive a car around the city!" "Thats right," St. Peter answered. "When you preached, people slept. But when this man drove, people prayed." Spiritual growth has little to do with words and everything to do with experience. We can distract each other - and ourselves - with words and hide behind them. Life experiences, however, runs far deeper and stays longer with us for a longer time. True prayer isn't a matter of executing a script; its's an intention of the heart. you can utter all the right words, butif your mind is wandering or your intention is weak, you'll reap meager results. If on the other hand, you reach out for help with sincerity, desire, and faith, you can say few words (or none at all), and your prayer will be answerws in a powerful way. Frightening or challenging experiences move us to ask deeper questions that summon profound answers. They cause us to evaluate how we're living, and remind us of the sacredness of life, our relationships, and our spirit. Suddenly we value things less and people more; we start to manipulate less and respect more. Those who have come close to death have a greater appreciation for life and make more authentic choices. Put your entire heart into your prayers. And when you're not praying, put your entire heart ito your life. Eventually, all your life will become a prayer. --Alan Cohen, Wisdom of the Heart - still searching for an answer @ 9:10 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Friday, May 20, 2005
now i have 2 b careful wat i wish for.. i wanted 2 leave this place n go far far away.. to forget all my troubles.. to heal a broken heart n a twisted soul.. 3 days later yesterday afternoon a call tells me 2 get ready 2 fly 2 china in july.. yeah im 1 lucky bastard.. there mayb pp out there dying for the opportunity n its actually given 2 a fellow tat didnt even bother 2 find out bt the company.. mistake on my part.. nv read instructions properly.. tot tat everyone must choose an overseas one.. so ok now i given this opportunity to go out there shan shan xin.. leave this place for a while to think alone.. get that particular gal off my mind and mayb i'll come back a happier and more mature person..
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"Here Without You" by Three Doors Down A hundred days have made me older Since the last time that i saw your pretty face A thousand lies have made me colder And i don't think i can look at this the same But all these miles that seperate Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And i dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight it's only you and me The miles just keep rollin' As the people leave their way to sail alone I've heard this life was overrated But i hope that it gets better as we go I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And i dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl its only you and me Everything i know,and anywhere i go It gets hard but it wont take away my love And when the last one falls When it's all said and done It gets hard but it wont take away my love I'm here without you baby But you're still on my lonely mind I think about you baby And i dream about you all the time I'm here without you baby But you're still with me in my dreams And tonight girl its only you and me - still searching for an answer @ 9:47 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Saturday, May 14, 2005
Just when im FINALLY in the mood 2 return 2 my blog, Blogger have 2 b down for maintianence.. looks like once again i abandoned my blog.. ha but this time onli for a month.. for the past month i couldnt bring myself 2 face my blog.. i figured tat its cos here i am reminded of a past tat i dun wanna remember.. nothing feels right since 3 months ago.. and its during this exam period every bad thought intensify until i landed up in a mild state of "depression".. i couldnt sleep.. i was sulking everywhere i go.. i ignore my family.. i get into a bad mood almost too easily just by thinking.. i've seen this b4 actually.. it was partially the reason i left hall.. back then i could easily have hurt someone just by saying the wrong things.. so i left hall.. i didnt wan my frens to turn into my enemies.. the past few weeks were terrible.. a nightmare.. its a pain tat u wan someone yet u cant have her.. then theres always this thought tat she will finally find someone she loves and tat someone is not me.. i was waiting.. i tot i could wait for a long time.. until the exams period i couldnt see her as often as i wanted.. i almost broke down.. if i was not thinking of her when im awake.. i was dreaming of her when im asleep.. a virgo is a perfectionist.. n here i am.. my love life in shambles.. i couldnt imagine i can be good in everything else n a through failure in love.. this waiting if it had even begun yet.. was affecting my life.. sleep was difficult.. i almost wanted 2 try sleeping pills but they have 2 b prescribed.. i kept everything in myself.. i had no one 2 tok to.. i needed a miracle.. then one day i figured if this carries on i would end up insane.. or am i already insane?.. so i just had to FORGET.. forget her.. erase every trace of her in my memory so i can move on.. i had to save my life.. i told myself i wan my life back.. not easy.. not easy at all.. especially when the other side had no idea u are trying 2 stay a distance away n still contact u.. now my mind wans to forget but my heart tells me theres still hope yet.. bryan u said just by forgeting is not enuf.. i need 2 divert.. divert my attention to other gals.. but to whom i ask? when in my mind theres onli one.. crossroads again.. do i hold on and wait.. or do i let go n move on.. - still searching for an answer @ 4:52 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Monday, April 18, 2005
the war between heart and mind and so rages on this eternal war the likes the world hasn't see before those constant battles unlike any other kind this internal war, between heart and mind heart struck first, with blunt emotional force and attempted to knock mind off it's course but mind held true with it's precise logical equations showing foresight, intelligence, and the utmost patience heart tried again with unending will but mind held to it's counter strike still mind struck second, attempting to confuse the heart but heart was strong, and would not easily be torn apart heart became desperate and tried to seduce it's foe mind your missing out! there's so much good you don't know! mind, reviewing it's strategy, brought forth what weapons it required but the weapons proved useless, without the heart's desire and so both continued to war, waiting for the day when those struggles and those conflicts would all pass away only proving the ever apparent conclusion, be it bitter and or true that no war or battle can be won, without the unity of the two. -- Roberto Campana - still searching for an answer @ 12:52 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Sunday, April 17, 2005
 Your inner soul is calling for help! You always seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior, but in all reality you are hurt inside and bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you wonder why are you still here when there is nothing left? You use to once be a happy, loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can be fixed again. However, you have yet seemed to realize that there are people out there that deeply care for you. They secretly have a thing for you because they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest person in the world! You like to enjoy your time by yourself expressing your feelings through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe. Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where you can hide out, hidden from those who gave you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have some fun! Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :) What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? brought to you by Quizilla - still searching for an answer @ 7:57 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Is love strength or weakness, pain or happiness? With love is one cursed or is one blessed. Are thoughts of someone to be treasured or hated? Are those thoughts even meant to be created? If one was to love and lose was it love at all. Is it really love just cause you sit and wait for a call. In my mind its weakness and will lead to nothing. When one loses their mind because of an assumption. Never knowing what's going on and scared to ask. But yet you tell yourself that it is meant to last. Most see relationships come and go. And the feeling of love, some will never know. Sometimes I sit and think about my mistakes. Thinking about having someone but how long will it take. Maybe it will take an eternity to find. Or maybe it's in front of my eyes and I'm just blind. What is the reason for tears if they cleanse your eyes and not your heart? In life I believe I'm finished but never had the chance to start. Too strong in mind to take my life and end existence. But to neyeave to call upon someone for repentance. I am evil I am a black sheep and outcasted. I turn on the world when things get drastic. No one to talk to just words to express. My life is filled with pain and you say I'm blessed. I have talent but nothing else Not even the intelligence to use talent for wealth I have intelligence but I'm not smart enough Willing risk everything to call someone's bluff Willing to go all out to do nothing right And knowing what's wrong with me keeps me up all night Another day comes and another day goes Another sky darkened and another wind blows But should I go on just cause life does Or should I not go on never knowing who I was Many hate me and very few care They think I don't know but I am aware I look at this and laugh thinking why Why was I born and when will I die Where will I go is there heaven or hell The only thing I do know is time will tell What is my reason and do I have purpose? Is my life meaningful or is it worthless Why cant I stop writing do I have that much in my head What is really bothering me would I really rather be dead I don't really know and probably never will I wish I had someone to talk to, to tell how I feel -- DaJuan Garrett - still searching for an answer @ 8:39 PM
"By Myself" by Linkin Park What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams? And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm streached so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily facade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I Turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll Take from me 'til everything is gone If I let them go I’ll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer by myself [myself] I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself How do you think I've lost so much I'm so afraid that I'm out of touch How do you expect... I will know what to do When all I know Is what you tell me to Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do, how hard I try I can't seem to convince myself why I'm stuck on the outside - still searching for an answer @ 10:54 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Friday, March 25, 2005
The Dark Side of your Zodiac Virgo (aug 23 - sep 22) You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. you tend to be ultra critical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. A little pessimistic sometimes, you tend to be an intellectual snob. you bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. and once in a while, you become a busybody that's when you also feel responsible for other people's problems. Advice: Modesty has its own limits - take credit for your efforts. give yourself a break and know that you do not have to be successful in everything you do. keep focused and don't get tangled in other people's affairs too often. - still searching for an answer @ 6:21 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Friday, March 18, 2005
MsN conversation dated 29 dec 2004 Bryan: yaya have to make a choice Bryan: if u dun u'll just end up nowhere Me: im already nowhere Bryan: yup now ur in the ocean u can either swim to shore or swim out to the sea Bryan: either way theres an ending Bryan: but u stay there thn its really regrettable Me: well if my good fren status dun deteriorate.. i always stand a chance rite? Bryan: haha nvr underestiamte the power of emotions Bryan: so tt means u wan to continue to hope? Me: im good at nothing but waiting games Bryan: thn u end up nowhere leh Me: i still continue 2 hope she realise me one day? Bryan: yaya so ur swimming out to sea Me: theres no fish on the shore Bryan: theres a small hut Bryan: maybe a village Bryan: or a city Bryan: or a metro city Me: yaya i get the meaning Bryan: yaya but now u swim out for tt island Bryan: hmm worth it? Bryan: how much of ur time are u willing to devote to her? Me: theres no other catches in the city or elsewhere so i might as well go for the island? Bryan: theres always more Me: i cant see any over the horizon Bryan: i'm sure theres something for u in the city Me: i doubt theres any Bryan: haha cos she's still in ur mind Me: so like tat im pretty much made my mind lah Bryan: yeah Bryan: thn very good Me: mayb i will look back n say im so stupid Bryan: u at least have a direction Bryan: not stupid Bryan: swim out to sea takes a lot of courage Bryan: haha many ppl dun think can do that - still searching for an answer @ 7:05 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Friday, March 11, 2005
- still searching for an answer @ 11:54 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Thursday, March 10, 2005
wah spent almost 3 hours tweaking n fitting this radio blog into my blog.. but now it looks good.. well worth the effort..
- still searching for an answer @ 2:22 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Tuesday, February 22, 2005
haven blogged in two weeks.. just not in the mood to write.. i really wondered whether i did the rite thing on v day.. now i feel everything is not wat it was last time.. we were more open n could talk about anything under the sun but now i feel shes putting up defences around herself.. actually i have no idea why it didnt work out.. mayb like wat sis said.. mayb timing was wrong n she wasnt ready for a relationship.. or mayb she was thinking i wasnt the one for her.. or mayb the other way round?.. or mayb she doesnt like the constraints of being attached to someone.. mayb finding a soulmate isnt most impt on her priority list.. actually i wasnt even sure whether i am ready for a relationship.. i wonder if im able to commit myself to maintaining one.. but like wat jeremy said.. these things come naturally once ur in one.. i wan to believe tat mayb the timing of my move wasnt rite.. i made the move too early.. too impatient.. at least now i have made my feelings known to her.. she just wanna be good frens like last time.. to say tat im ok with tat would be a lie.. im sad but not to the extent of being heartbroken.. like wat i said in my previous post.. its make or break this year.. well looks like i'll be spending my nx christmas feeling lonely again as usual.. is there someone out there waiting for me?.. is it tat hard to find her? "Beautiful Soul" by Jesse McCartney I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul I know that you are something special To you I'd be always faithful I want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul Your beautiful soul, yeah You might need time to think it over But im just fine moving forward I'll ease your mind If you give me the chance I will never make you cry c`mon lets try I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul Am I crazy for wanting you Baby do you think you could want me too I don't wanna waste your time Do you see things the way I do I just wanna know if you feel it too There is nothing left to hide I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I wont let another minute go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul Your beautiful soul, yeah - still searching for an answer @ 11:31 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Monday, February 07, 2005
There's an old saying - you like someone "because". "Because" they have blue eyes, or a pretty smile, or a cute nose. You love someone "even though". Even though he's not rich, even though she's not an excellent cook. Liking means you're fond of their good traits. Love means you accept them fully even though they're not perfect.
--Anonymous - still searching for an answer @ 9:04 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Thursday, February 03, 2005
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Is it better to have painful memories or no memories at all? Personally, the movie makes us all realize that no matter how painful are memories are, these memories would still mean the world to us. Memories are sometimes all we are left with when people leave us. Cherish them for they make us who we are.. - still searching for an answer @ 11:21 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Tuesday, February 01, 2005
The paradox of our time in history is that:
we have taller buildings, but shorter tempers; wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints; we spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy it less. We have bigger houses and smaller families; more conveniences, but less time; we have more degrees, but less sense; more knowledge, but less judgement; more experts, but more problems; more medicine, but less wellness. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduces our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, hate too often. We learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life, but not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbor. We've conquered outer space, but not inner space; we've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul; we've split the atom, but not our prejudice; we have higher incomes, but lower morals; we've become long on quantity, but short on quality. These are the times of tall men, and short character; steep profits, and shallow relationships. These are the times of world peace but domestic warfare; more leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition. These are the days of two incomes, but more divorce; of fancier houses, but broken homes. It is a time when there is much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom; a time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to make a difference-- or just hit delete. --Anonymous ("The Paradox") - still searching for an answer @ 9:04 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Wednesday, January 26, 2005
By understanding the differences between the sexes, you can start to build on collective strengths, rather than on individual weaknesses. The result, hopefully, is how both can lead happier, healthier and more harmonious lives, leading to relationships that are fulfiling, enjoyable and satisfying.
WOMEN'S ENGLISH:
MEN'S ENGLISH
From Why Men Can Only Do One Thing at a Time and Women Never Stop Talking by Allan and Babara Pease - still searching for an answer @ 11:24 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Sunday, January 23, 2005
This is seriously one of the most uplifting songs i've heard.. simple lyrics but carries a great message.. listening will instantly make me feel better.. Jimmy Eat World in my opinion is one of the most underrated bands out there.. Some of their other songs that i love veri much: "Polaris", "Kill", "Work" and "23"..
"The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World Hey Don't write yourself off yet It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on Just try your best Try everything you can And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away It just takes some time Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride Everything everything will be just fine Everything everything will be all right X2 Hey you know they're all the same You know you're doing better on your own so don't buy in Live right now Ya just be yourself It doesn't matter if it isn't good enough for someone else It just takes some time Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride Everything everything will be just fine Everything everything will be all right X2 Do your best Do everything you can Don't you worry what their bitter hearts are going to say - still searching for an answer @ 3:26 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Friday, January 21, 2005
Finally after 2 years of waiting.. my own digicam!.. A 5 megapixel Canon Powershot A95.. together wif 128MB compactflash card.. a 7-in-1 carrier bag.. and rechargeable NiMh batteries.. at $630.. after a $70 discount.. its supposedly one of the best 5 megapixel digicams around as reviewed on many photo-imaging websites.. its LCD screen can rotatable so that the camera can shoot many angles while i still look at the screen.. veri interesting 2 play wif.. its a little on the heavier side though.. cant really fit into a shirt pocket too.. but its ok.. im still playing around wif the focusing n stuff cos i wan the images 2 look nice n sharp.. soon i will post my gundam models pics on this site.. wat i always wanted 2 do..
Heres a look at my new gadget: 
Bought Juventus jersey at $59 yesterday at queensway.. the size S fits me nicely.. cant wait 2 wear.. lied 2 mom that its $28 n she still say its expensive.. 
- still searching for an answer @ 3:06 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Monday, January 17, 2005
Its been a long time since i last browsed the public folders.. and it amuses me wat some pp are putting up for sale.. heres some of the items i found.. lightsticks, mahjong table, Romance of ThreeKingdoms I,II,III, violin, contact lenses, pool cue, Bak Gua, baby highchair, thai village voucher, gas-jar(?), wine display, redoxon vitaminC effervescent and even SK II Facial Treatment Essence!
- still searching for an answer @ 5:54 PM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: Saturday, January 15, 2005
"Kill" by Jimmy Eat World
You're just across the street Looks a mile to my feet I want to go to you Funny how I'm nervous still I've always been the easy kill I guess I always will Could it be that everything goes around by chance Or only one way that it was always meant to be You kill me You always know the perfect thing to say I know what I should do but I just can't walk away I can picture your face well From the bar in my hotel I wish I'd go to you I pick up, put down the phone Like your favorite Heatmiser song goes: 'It's just like being alone...' Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means You kill me You've got some nerve but can't face your mistakes I know what I should do but I just can't turn away So go on, love Leave while there's still hope for escape Got to take what you can these days There's so much ahead And so much regret I know what you want to say I know it but can't help feeling differently I loved you And I should have said it But tell me Just what has it ever meant I can't help it baby This is who I am Sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel You kill me You build me up but just to watch me break I know what I should do but I just can't walk away From songmeanings.net: This is a song about a guy who likes a girl, gets up the courage to talk to her, and becomes friends with her. She always treats him like shit and leads him on and then ditches him. He gets mad, swears he won't let her do this anymore, but then "You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say", he falls in love with her again and can't turn away. The key phrase in this whole entire song is "YOU KILL ME", because although it connotates a negative feeling, it really isn't, because he wants to be with that person so bad that the 'killing' part is something he will put up with, in order to keep his feelings for her alive. This song is the never-ending cycle of loving but not wanting to love that person because you know they're not good for you. But, they are just so appealing to you that you don't want to lose hope that someday they'll quit playing stupid games with you and they'll be a 'happily every after' somewhere in there. - still searching for an answer @ 1:49 AM :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: |
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